Out of routine

Strangely enough, I've been a little fresher and happier in the afternoon than in the mornings lately. That's polar opposite of when it was just me and Tobey. Our previous morning routine was like clockwork and I found a lot of comfort in it, an easy way to ramp up into the day.

So no wonder I'm completely out of sorts when Eli doesn't go along with our morning routine. He may take his breakfast nursing at 6 or 7 or 8 or 9, depending on when he took his middle of the night nursing if at all and how long he sleeps after. Point is, it's random. Which means sometimes Tobey has to entertain himself in the morning while I'm nursing Eli, sometimes he doesn't. Sometimes he gets breakfast on time, sometimes he doesn't. And as blogged before, Tobey has been getting a little clingy/whiny (even before getting sick) and when he gets that way, I get irritated. Irritated at 9AM. Not a great start to the day.

Seems like we all are fresher after an afternoon nap. I've also noticed that my anxiety with when Eli cries isn't so much about Eli. Since Tobey has shown on a couple of occasions (especially when he's tired) that he can get irritated and cranky when Eli cries, I just never know when Eli's crying will set Tobey off into a tantrum. And that fear is what makes me anxious about Eli's crying.

Sigh. Can't wait until Eli is into routine. At least that way, things are more predictable.